Was feeling really crappy earlier today. No good reason for it. Some stuff wasn't working out how I wanted it to. But more or less things are moving forward.

Still, I wanted to gouge out my eyes. I wanted to scream. Instead I wandered around the house ineffectually muttering to myself.

I figured out something major that had been stumping me for a while. It was totally blocking me and now a whole line of projects are going to move forward. That pulled me out of it a bit. Had a few other minor successes. Ate a tasty lunch. I went back in time and beat the hell out of a few childhood enemies. Watered the garden. Petted the cat. But I still feel very crappy give upperry.

Again no reason for it. I guess I haven't felt hopeless and defeated for a while. Maybe I missed it. Maybe vaguely positive felt wrong. It was strange and confusing to me.